Monday, September 27, 2010

Wake me up when September ends...

This September has been a hard month to get through and through it I managed to survive despite various things that threatened to rain misery on me. I didn't, however, not escape from some days of misery.

To start it off, I ended up mis-budgeting my money once again but do to a haircut and treatment, I was already close to finishing up my budget at the start of the month. Two weeks later and I had maxed out my credit card. Fortunately my parents are generous and have some money alloted for food in my rent budget that I could fall back on. So I lasted another week with money for food. Eating out is definitely expensive but it has been hard to try and find time to make my own lunch to school and even then some days I don't get back till late at night so I may as well make dinner too. I haven't been able to go to either the farmers' markets or the groceries. So it has been a month of seeing what I had and what I can make. Well as if that weren't already hard, my microwave broke down mid-month and so now we can't reheat food without having to wait at least 30 min in the oven and using glass oven-ware - it sounds easy but then it means extra dishes to wash and I already was nagged about putting glass in the sink (that I was soaking) once. So it has been by the grace of God that I have been able to eat food via friends' generosities and that of finding free food. I have been humbled and am not too picky about my food. Some days I eat straight up tuna sandwiches that the same roommate that nagged me about the glass in the sink has looked at me in disdain and grotesqueness about but hey I am hungry and poor and it tastes good enough for me.

So as if being hungry and nearly broke for the month weren't enough. I have had a streak of bad luck in parking. I suppose this could have been avoided had I been able to wake up early and just go biking down to campus but when some nights you get back at 11 and you still have some HW to do, its not always possible to go to sleep early to wake up early. I am especially sleepiest in the mornings. Yet I was running late one time and decided to park at McDonald's for the morning and ended up getting fined 60 dollars. I also had my car broken into one evening when parked behind Frontier. The second time I got fined for parking at Frontier for the first time ever. Yup so whatever few dollars I was trying to save have been spent on parking.

Whatever pride was left before has been completely taken away. I have been resorted to being a poor college student except for nice housing. I have been humbled and blessed at the same time. I survived it and I feel a bit wiser now as to managing my expenses. I am truly trying to cut down on my expenses. I may end up getting a job at Talin to start getting some income. Speaking of jobs, I didn't get the previous job I had applied for on campus. So that was also another loss this month. As you can see, a lot happened in September and there were days where I was really upset and was just needed to get some quiet time/space but having roommates didn't really help sometimes. Other times they did but it is just hard to compromise sometimes and deal with others. I don't like talking about my miseries because I don't want pity and I don't want to attract attention. Sometimes all I want is some peace of mind and rest of body or TLC. I will sulk, be anti-social the days that I am just having life come at me and wish that I could come home to that peace and quiet without having to deal with nagging of any kind and even sometimes noise. I am one who loves silence contrary the general public that needs constant noise. It was one of the things I came to enjoy about living in my own apartment.

2 comments:

Laura and James said...

Hey Gaby, I always parked at St. Marks. I usually was in the lot behind the church, it's kind of hidden. it says church parking only but there are no signs saying they will tow, and I would be there even late on Thursday nights or other nights sometimes, and my car was always fine. so you could probably do that on the days you need to drive, even though it is a little further of a walk. (about 15 min)

Also-- you have your own room, can't you just go there and shut your door when you want to be alone?

-Laura

Gaby said...

Laura,
This is late but the thing about having roommates is that they make noise and they make demands even when you shut your door. In those days I just wanted some peace and quiet and to not have anything demanded.